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November 2010

Nov 27, 20102,201 notes
Skinny is Perfect: Tips on fasting:) →

skinny-is-perfect:

  1. Try not to tell anyone outside of the weight loss/ed community. This sort of speaks for itself but you’ll have your friends worry and yell at you. That’s not what you need. 
  2. Turn off the tv! You know those commercials with the delicious food, it’ll just make you more hungry. Turn off the tv and work out!
  3. Get by yourself when you’re fasting. So you can think more clearly and think of your goals. It’s the most peaceful time, really.
  4. Do yoga! It’s really relaxing during a fast and you can burn calories :)
  5. Go for a nice long walk. Clear your mind enjoy the fresh air. This can curb your cravings and hunger and just be enjoyable. 
  6. Sleep. Not sleeping increases your hunger levels by 15-20%
  7. DRINK PLENTY OF WATER. Keep yourself hydrated. During fasting if you work yourself too hard and don’t hydrate yourself you can pass out or get sick. Plus water is great for flushing out fat!
  8. Don’t push your body too hard- no your limits. If you’re fasting for a while, working out for 7 hours that day isn’t too wise. You’re more likely to pass out. Take it a bit easier than usual, but at the same time don’t slack.
Nov 27, 201012 notes
Don't give up ! <33 I encourage you to do 20 crunches right now and the whole time, think "i will be skinny".. because you WILL be skinny! & If you feel a binge coming on, drink a huge cup of water.. and hopefully that will change your mind. you can do it :) xox

Thank you so much! Tumblr is such a great place :) I love people here! xxx Well it’s a pity that weekend’s here… Because at the weekend, my mom is at home all day and she cooks meals and I have to eat with the family ughh… I can control my intake on the weekdays. Idk how could I eat less when my parents are watching. But thanks for the message anyways. Thank you. It really helps <3

Nov 26, 2010
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Nov 19, 20102,247 notes
499) I just want control. Nothing is in my hands except for my weight.
Nov 13, 201019 notes
I just told my dad I don't want the chocolate he bought me (my favourite one)! I just really told him!!! I've already regretted it like a million times but I kind of feel... satisfied

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Edit (answer to fuckyeahiwillbeskinny): I knoww! I also hate wasting food, like you know, when I don’t want to eat the last piece of sandwhich and I throw it into the trash can… it’s a bad feeling. I hate wasting stuff!

Nov 12, 20102 notes
Nov 12, 201089 notes
so you’ve been awake for a few minutes now. thinking about what you ate yesterday. the stupid, stupid mistakes that you would love to go back and change. the calories that didn’t make you any happier. that extra digit that showed up on the scale. so you’re going to do what? sit on tumblr all day staring at the pictures of the girls that you wish you could be? read the blogs of girls who are succeeding? try to not eat for a few hours and then give into your depression? NO. you will achieve it. screw that scale. screw the people who told you you weren’t worth it. screw the food sitting in the pantry, the fridge, the stores, the restaurants. ladies, it’s day 1 of no more binges. day 1 of consistent pound loss. day 1 of sore abs, legs, and butts. count ahead a few days. where are you? day 30 of the guys noticing you. day 47 of proving your family wrong. day 59 of your skinny friends not lying when they call you pretty. day 70 of not being embarrassed in dressing rooms. day 82 of everyone asking if you’ve lost weight. day 95 of shopping in the small sizes. day 110 of people picking you up to give you hugs without thinking you’re too heavy. day 123 of feeling the jealousy of other girls looking at you. day 132 of being somebody else’s thinspo. you can’t get to those days without having a day 1. and those dates may seem far away, but think about this: day 2 includes being happy with your choices from the day before.
Nov 12, 20108,661 notes
It's not about being skinny or pretty. It's about being both; being perfect and not a pound more.
Nov 10, 20109 notes
One of my friends came up to me in P.E. lesson at about 1 pm and told me „Gosssh, I'm about to faint, I haven't eaten anything yet.” I was wondering what would she think that I went through like a million days without breakfast
Nov 10, 2010
If I don't eat any more today, I'll be so satisfied!

It’s 6.03pm. And this pain in my stomach won’t go away. Please, go away. I’ve already eat a slice of bread in the morning. I’ve already fed you! Now shut up.

I’ll be so strong if I don’t eat anything else today. <3

Edit: I didn’t eat anything elsee. One slice of bread for one dayyy. Soo happyyy.

canwebefuckingskinnythisyear
said: Keep being strong hun! I believe that you can <3
Thank youuuu <3

Nov 9, 20102 notes
Nov 9, 20102 notes
#myself
Chasing Size Zero: The Extra Skinny Diet (XSD) →

extraskinny:

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Things you can have unlimited quantities of the following items, unless it is sunday:

  • Water
  • Green Tea (try one with a hint of flavour if you don’t like the taste or get bored of drinking it)
  • Watermelon
  • Celery
  • Cucumber
  • Acai berry
  • Blackberry
  • Lemon
  • Grapefruit
  • Hot Peppers
Nov 9, 20101,221 notes
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400) I hate looking at my legs when I sit down because then they look even fatter than they are.
Nov 9, 2010341 notes
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There are so many little kids in the world who are starving. I wish, everytime someone forces me to eat some high-cal food, I could simply pass it on.
Nov 6, 20104 notes
If you're reading this right now, get up and do 50 crunches.

thiisiisalliveeverwanted:

-journeytothin:

prettystarving:

thinitis:

skinnyistheway:

itssafetosayyoudigthebackseatt:

chasingsizezero:

just do it, my nigga i just did. LOL ACTUALLY DO  IT

GOING TO DO THIS … NOW

i’m in bed. BUT HECK. I’LL DO THEM RIGHT HERE. RIGHT NOW.

Man did that hurt lol, but it felt good, empowering (: DO IT!

Wooooo that felt good, I did some bicycles while I was there :)

^^SAME

okay :) <3

I actually did it.

Nov 6, 201072 notes
Holy sheeeet. I just checked my weight and I'm 50,5 kg = 111 lbs which means I got fatter since I started my diet.
Nov 6, 2010
Today was better

Soooo. I bought a white jacket & a white jumper & a white hat in Tally Weijl. I love them all. Especially the cap. Haha it’s so cute! I think I’m gonna wear it everywhere since now :) I feel better today. I could miss the breakfast (I said I’m not hungry, dad said “Who isn’t hungry at 10 in the morning?” but they didn’t say anything else). But I couldn’t miss lunch :/ They forced me to eat a hamburger. Uh! I also drank 2 capuccinos in McDonald’s which was full of sugar but who cares I love it. I dunno if I’ll eat dinner… I think so. At least an apple.

Nov 6, 2010
313) I have two tumblrs. One where I post all about my favourite band, reblog anything that makes me laugh, talk to people I've known online for ages, talk to my best friend who is the only RL person I let follow it. Then one filled with photos of girls with protruding rib cages and hip bones, girls who have thighs that don't touch and backs so lovely you can count every vertebrae. I reblog anything that makes me want to cry and rip my fatty skin off. I'm two different people. The girl who talks to everyone and laughs at all the jokes and disowns you playfully when you diss that favourite band of hers. Then I get home, and I'm the girl spending all her time in front of the mirror, wishing herself to smash into pieces like a pane of glass. I'm the girl whose head fills with numbers and bones once her head hits the pillow, before crying herself to sleep and hoping she doesn't wake up. No one would ever believe me if I told them, so I won't. I'll just keep this quietly to myself like I always have and always will.

Story. Of. My. Life.

Nov 6, 20101,217 notes
I shouldn't have gone out with friends yesterday.

I ate 4 slices of bread at my bff’s house… oh shit. I’m so sure I ate 1000+ kcal!

First I went to my so-called bff’s house at half past 1; we met up with two of our friends at 2 and stayed with them til 6. Then we went to meet other friends at 7. And everything happened like it had to be.

My bff didn’t give a shit about me, but that’s just usual. You know, I didn’t even want to go there the first place. My mom said it’ll be too much time spent together. From 2pm to 10pm - yeah, now I see 8 hours are really long and we spent it all together.

So I got angry at myself - why did I eventually go there. Then I got nervous - why does she do this all the time. Why does she say “Oh come on, come, we’ll have a good time” and then doesn’t give a fuck about me.

So I asked my friend if he could pass me a cig, and I started smoking and thought it’ll get me feel calm. I sometimes smoke. But really sometimes. But then I knew I shouldn’t start it cos the group - who I was with - doesn’t accept smoking. I heard someone saying “ya know, I am never ever smoking” and I was sure as hell they were talking about me. I felt like shit.

We’re going shopping to the capital city today with mom, dad and my little brother. We’ll go to McDonald’s but I try to eat something not high-cal. I hope I find some cute clothes and this day gets better than yesterday.

Nov 6, 2010
It doesn't matter if I look skinnier, but if the numbers on the scale don't go down, then it doesn't count.
Nov 6, 201013 notes
well i dont eat at school, and i only eat dinner the size of my fist. chewing gum helps me alot, it only has 18 kj's and keeps my mind off food cause im already chewing something. you will have really good self control if you try to avoid food as much as possible, distraction helps alot.

Thanks. I like chewing gums too because after it food tastes like shit. Same with toothbrushing: whenever I feel hungry, I brush my teeth and if I eat something after it, it won’t taste nice. (And it’s also good for my teeth.) Thanks for the ideas.

Nov 5, 20101 note
I just ate breakfast. My mom told me she's eating breakfast, I told her I'll eat later then she made me 2 and a half freaking delicious pieces of bread with butter on it with onion.

… and I ate it. I just can’t say „No” to food when it’s in front of me on a plate.

2 and a half slice of bread = 2 x 250 kcal + 250/2 = 625 kcal and I didn’t even count butter! :(

I need to develop my self control. I don’t want to eat lunch but I think I’ll eat a plate of Cini Minis for dinner. But, I’m going out with friends today (again) and sure thing that we’ll go into some fast food restaurant/candy shop. Ah, hell. Why can’t people just live without food!

Nov 5, 2010
Yay! I reached 200+ followers! Thank you soo much! <3
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Nov 5, 201042 notes
Thank you for posting that, its a friends birthday tomorrow I would like to go its just that I'm scared of doing something silly. I'll try eat something safe like porride oats or soup before i go out cause I don't get sweet cravings if i eat something bland and filling.

All I can say is stay strong. I’m sure they’ll try to offer you cakes, sweets, chocolate, whatever. Well, if you want my personal opinion, I would eat a small piece of cake so they won’t notice I’m not eating any more. But if you do know about yourself that you would continue eating, then don’t do this. I think you should eat something before you go there, something low-cal so you won’t be that hungry.

Nov 5, 2010
Nov 4, 2010
My mom just brought food from the shop. They're eating breakfast and I told them I'm coming later. Omg omg omg what to do now? :/
Nov 4, 20102 notes
I kinda wish we could all go to a camp together, we could sit around a bonfire smoking cigarettes and maybe some weed and we'd all just talk. And we'll all forage for berries. No junk food, no high calorie shit allowed. And we would go for morning hikes and go swimming all day long and at the end of camp we'd all be beautiful.

I actually thought about this a few days ago… this is why I joined Tumblr <3 I have my inspiration in you guys, I can see what are you doing, how much do you eat, how do you exercise. This camp would be the best stuff ever! <3

Nov 4, 2010
whats Ednos? :/ x

Well, to be honest, I actually don’t clearly understand what ednos means. It’s short for Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified. It involves a little bit of both anorexia and bulimia; but we can’t rank it in any of them. A person with ednos shows all the symptoms of ana but has normal periods, doesn’t eat for days, but has a normal weight. Symptoms of mia are also shown, but they don’t binge more than twice a week. Some say it’s the worst eating disorder (I don’t know why, though). I found out these information last year, this is all I can remember, sorry. Hope I helped. x

Nov 3, 2010
Best feelings

spacetheycannottouch:

  • Feeling wanted
  • Finding out the person you like, likes you back
  • When last minute plans work out
  • Sleeping in
  • Over-hearing someone say something nice about you
  • Spending lost of time with your best friends
  • Risking something and not getting caught
  • Random text messages
  • Realising you have more money then you think
  • Passing a test you thought you failed
  • Being told someone loves you
  • Compliments 
  • Falling asleep as soon as your head hits the pillow
  • Thin.
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Nov 3, 2010157 notes
could i see your prog blog? :)

I don’t have a progblog. Once I lose like 10 lbs I’ll post a picture on here.

Nov 3, 2010
#q and a
8) My friends make jokes all the time about people they see, like if they see a girl thats rather skinny they'd make a joke like "Oh look at her, she needs to eat a cheeseburger." or if they see a skinny girl eating they go "I bet she's going to throw that up as soon as she's finished." And it really makes me sick to my stomach because I think what if that girl really does have an eating disorder...

(via confessionsabouteatingdisorders)

Nov 2, 201034 notes
I have absolutely no self control

I should just give this sh– up. Anyways I’m still 110 lbs. I’m still my f–ing starting weight.

Nov 2, 20101 note
Nov 2, 2010
You don't have to post this, because I don't particularly want to see your response, but I honestly think that you look perfect how you are. I don't really know what to say, but I thought I should say something. You're just 14, not meant to be patronizing or anything. You are going to grow, and if you reach your goal weight, you'll be really underweight. I'm sorry, i don't want to be unsupportive, but I get this whole I need to be thin thing, but I've experienced what it can do. One of my best freinds barely eats anything, decided to excercise a ridiculous amount, and she keeps getting dizzy and fainting, and it's not good for you. My mum eats hardly anything, and runs a stupid amount, but she doesn't look attractive because she's thin, she just looks like she's wasting away. my sister, on the other hand, got thin in time; she was a size 16 at age 16, and now she's 18 and she's a size 6 or 8. It went away naturally. I'm really sorry for ranting, but please, just take a good look at what you're doing to yourself, and what it means.

I post everything (except progress blog passwords of course), so sorry if you don’t really want to see my answer. I’m sorry for your best friend, mother, sister, and I hope you can help them. My mother is the same; she usually runs and rides the bike, and she got really thin, like only 13 lbs (6 kg) more than me! Than her daughter. The difference between our weight used to be 25 lbs (11 kg). That’s because I used to be really thin, but my mom never was „fat”. I know what I’m doing, I don’t want an eating disorder and I sure as hell don’t want to be thin as some anorexic girls… I just want to be skinnier than most of the girls, looking really good in everything. Thanks for the message!

Nov 2, 2010
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